Till its gone

So I had a pretty emotional weekend.. this is what happend:
Friday around 5pm I went for a run.. shortly after I got back I had really sharp pain.. shooting all over my pelvic area and lower back. I laid down for a bit and took a hot bath. An hour later the pain was gone. I went on with my night and had dinner at my parents house. I went home and went to bed. Around 11pm, I had the same pain, only worse. I woke up and went to the bathroom. I noticed a lot of blood. I knew something was wrong. I went to the ER. About an hour later after having a ultrasound done, I found out I had an ovarian cyst rupture. Apparently it's pretty common. But really scary! They gave me pain killers and told me to follow up with my doctor. I have an appointment for Wednesday. I'm really nervous. I have cyst before but never had one rupture. I'm not sure if it does any damage to your ovaries or what? I want to have kids but always said if I didn't I'd be okay with that, I loveee being a Auntie! But now that I'm faced with the fact that I may not, I'm super sad. I know I can always adopt (which I plan on doing, kids or no kids) I want to have kids eventually, a basketball team if I could (starting 5, only!). So now I gotta wait til Wednesday to find out more info. I'm sure everything will be okay. Just gotta be positive! But it is true, "you don't know what you got till it's gone"! Hope everyone has a blessed week!

Christmas in your heart!

Remember, if Christmas isn't found in your heart, you won't find it under a tree."

~ Charlotte Carpenter.



With the holiday near, I think it's very important to remember with Christmas is really all about. Not the presents, egg nog, caroling, or mistletoe ;) It's about celebrating Christ's birthday and more importantly... with the people you love! Sometimes it's easy to forget with all the ipod's, tv's, and game systems. Like the quote above, presents aren't going to make you happy if you have no love in your heart. This time of the year is about sharing and caring! I donated to blue santa this year.. which is a great cause! It's also a good time to teach children a great lesson. My wonderful Sis in law Abby always has her children take presents to children who are less fortunate. It makes them realize that not every child gets present, and appreciate all they have!



I just love being able to spend this holiday with my family! My brother is recently divorced, and he gets to spend this Christmas with his boys! I'm sooo excited! We're going to the Great Wolf Lodge the 19-22nd =) If you haven't heard of it, check it out :

http://www.greatwolf.com/grapevine/waterpark

It's going to be the first Christmas in a couple of years that all of us get to be together.. my parents, my brothers, and their families! It's going to be soooo nice! I'm very thankful, I think family is the best present of all!!!!!



Hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday.. and remember to have Christmas in your heart!

Tis the Season.. for BAKING!

Happy Holidays ALL!

A few months ago my friend Bre posted pics of some delicious cookies.. called pillow chocolate chip cookies. Or what I like to call BROOKIES. They are chocolate chip cookies with brownies in the center! Just as delicious as they sound!
My great friend Sarah who is an amazing cupcake baker, gives me at least half a dozen cupcakes when she makes them for her business. & They are amazing!!! In return I've made her brownies and told her I'd make her some Brookies. Well Sarah got in a car accident Friday. Thank GOD, her and her family are okay! The pictures of the wreck were crazy and it's truly a miracle that all the left the accident with was a couple bumps and bruises! So of course, I got to baking.. everyone knows that cookies make everything better! =)

So here are Pics of the homemade Brookie's I made...



I had to bake the brownies first..


Then put the brownies in the center of the cookie dough (Or what I like to call, making brookie babies!)



& here are the Brookies! Taste Delicious as they look!!!


Here's the recipe if you would like to make them...
http://www.bakerella.com/pillow-cookies/

Painting with a Twist!

My friend Sarah invited me to this place called Painting with a Twist! Its a super cute little paint shop off 281 and bitters. Basically you pay $35, they provide a canvas, paint, brushes, and you provide the wine! Its sooo much fun. They have a calender of different kinds of paintings you can do. You pick one, and reserve it online. Then you go in and they teach you how to paint it! I absolutley loved it!! =) I can't wait to go again! I saw a painting on the wall of a brown puppy in a bath tub.. it looked like Sadie! So cute!

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Secrets of Your Mind! =)

So I watched Secrets of Your Mind on ABC last night. GREAT SHOW. Last night's show was talking about Love and Lust. Did you know that there is 3 different parts of your brain that show love? They show Romantic Love, Attachment Love, and Sexual Love. The show starts off with a story of a couple who decides to get their brain scanned before and after a long and torturous road trip together through 16 different countries (8.5 months). So the study was to see if they are in love and how long they stay in love. The couple decide not to look at the results of the first scan til they reach the end of their journey. Of course the journey had its ups and downs, but at the end they said they still felt madly in love. When the opened the results from the first scan it said they were in love and predicted a happy marriage! So then they took a second scan and it was kind of surprising. The second scan said the husbands Romantic Love went down?! The wife was very upset. But the husband said he still felt a romantic connection with her. The decided to do a third scan, and it was just like the first. The husbands Romantic Love was back up! They were both beyond thrilled. But what if it had stayed down? Do you think she would've been able to stay with him knowing his brain read different than what he felt? And should everyone get brain scans to see if their loved one is compatible?


I was very intrigued by this study. After all, how well do you know your partner at first? Is it possible to trick your brain? I don't think I would do the study but I do think its amazing what the mind tells us. But what about the heart?!?!?


kay so this leads me to the next story/study. A couple was madly in love and right about their 1 yr anniversary the husband gets in a car accident. He's in critical condition and might not make it. His wife stays by his side and cares for him. The husband wakes up and lost all his memory! He can't remember growing up let alone his marriage. His wife still cares for him and helps him recover knowing he has no idea who she is. Needless to say he never regained his memory. Most people would give up and move on. She still cared for him and showed him pictures of the past and never gave up on him. He loved her so much for this. Even though he still didn't remember her, he stayed with her. Obviously his brain had no love for her but could his heart over pass his brain? The couple ended up staying together and even had children together. How amazing is that? They fell in love all over again.

Either way, I believe everything happens for a reason.

Of course I have to quote Eat Love Pray "You must stop looking at the world through your head. You must look through your heart instead. "

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Kalos kai agathos

So I've been reading, "Eat Love Pray". This book is amazing and every chapter I get more and more inspired. In one chapter she's depressed and trying to figure out her life. She uses this quote and it really got to me. It pretty much explains the way I've been feeling lately. Not that I'm depressed but I've been trying to find that balance in my life. Well here it goes.....

“I wanted worldly enjoyment and divine transcendence– the dual glories of a human life. I wanted what the Greeks call kalos kai agathos, the singular balance of the good and the beautiful. I’d been missing both during these last hard years, because both pleasure and devotion require a stress-free space in which to flourish and I’d been living in a giant trash compactor of nonstop anxiety. as for how to balance the urge for pleasure against the longing for devotion… well, surely there was a way to learn that trick.”

The singular balance of the good and the beautiful. How beautiful is that?! The best of both worlds is the way I think us Americans say it. How do you find that balance of good and beautiful with soooo many stresses. I work soooo much and I want to enjoy my life but have so many responsibilities. I do love my job, and so thankful for everything that has happened for me this year. But I still feel as though I'm missing something. That balance that completes me.

I think I'm going to start with a Happy and healthy me. Working out always makes me feel good. Its a small start but I'm excited about finding that balance and feeling good about myself. Hopefully I can actually keep it up. One step closer to finding that balance =)

Two SteP or Not....?!?

For the last couple of years I've been debating whether I should make the BIG step and move out of Texas or maybe just out of San Antonio. I LOVE Texas but I'm young, single and have an amazing job that gives me the opportunity to travel. I have no clue if I will even be given the option to move but can't stop thinking about it. I mean, do I even want to move? I love the idea of moving somewhere new and starting off fresh. I did grew up as an Army Brat ( Hooooahhhh! ) and although it was hard, I loved being the new girl (surprise surprise). The only thing that is holding me back is my wonderful family and friends. I know I know.. I can always come back and visit. But seriously, its hard enough to get a weekend off in the hotel business let alone a week or more to come home. Ay yi yi! lol I know I have time to think it over but still wonder what your thought is. SO pleassse... HELP ME! Two Step to another place... or stay Deep in the Heart of Texas!?

Why HeLLo There! :)

I've been debating this whole blog thing for the past couple of years and finally decided to give in! I've been attempting to write a novel but since I have zero time/energy after working.. I figured blogging will be a nice substitute until I make more time! So, welcome to my blog! Hope you enjoy yourself and look forward to the wonderful feedback! =)